You move like a haunted house, which means
you don’t move, but are moved inside. Each
bump, every cough in your crawlspace is enough
to collapse the roof. The roof hasn’t been around
for years, not since your growth in the attic pushed
it off. And at night you let the owls swoop in.
Nurses. The hospital bed erected so that your chest
mirrors the sky—tumor blackest in every X-ray.
The walls of your ribs reveal branches covered
in snow. Mice crawl inside them, make the owls go
lustful. But you only hear all this. Feel it, too.
The wind coursing in rivulets down your arms,
how it stings open the windows. When the insects
tire of the light, they cover your face. When children
fill a haunted house, it looks more silly than scary.
The hills you see outside and the tapering clouds
about to erupt with hail, the loneliness of being
emptied, trees like drifters. Are you ever afraid
the old leaves will stay inside you forever. Or
are you more afraid this all will leave, no more
mice to find stiff on the kitchen floor. The storm
that will be the attic’s last upheaval, filling it
with an ice that melts down to the pit of your
back, plants a stone, which will not grow.
COREY VAN LANDINGHAM is currently an MFA candidate at Purdue University, where she serves as Poetry Editor of Sycamore Review. In the summer of 2011, she was chosen by Ander Monson as the winner of the Indiana Review's 1/2 K Prize, and was awarded a Bread Loaf Work-Study Scholarship. Her poems have appeared in or are forthcoming in Copper Nickel, Crazyhorse, Indiana Review, Redivider, Typo, and ZYZZYVA.